25-8-1994 - 23-4-2013
It’s almost been a year since your life came to an untimely end. You see my brother drank bleach on the 16th of April 2013 and died a week later in Birmingham hospital. This time last year you were in hospital in excruciating pain waiting for my visit. A year tomorrow it will be the last time I ever saw you alive , the last time I felt the warmth in your hands , little did I know the next time I would see you would be on a metal table , cold as stone , breathless , motionless. Dead. The next time I would grasp your hand I wouldn’t feel your usual touch but deathly , still , nothingness.
It pains me every day to think what I could’ve done , but I didn’t and I am so sorry. Jacob you were my bestfriend , for years we were inseperable now we are seperarated until the end of my days.
I still see you, in our little sisters smile , when the sun shines bright , I still hear you in your favourite song and I still need you everyday. I know this feeling of needing you will never go away but I can come to terms with your death and understand that you have left behind all the physical and emotional pain you faced everyday. I will feel the pain of your loss everyday but also the love I will always have for you.
Thankyou for being my bestfriend and being here for me Jake. I would not be here without you.
If anyone would like to talk to me about suicide or would like to talk as they’re mourning over their late relative or friend , message me anytime:) I’m always here to help people , because if I help someone else I will feel as though I’m helping my brother too:) thankyou♡